Swore i wouldn’t write another line
So maybe this is just to kill the time
Either that or i hope it heals the mind
Yeah, hope it heals the mind
They said that time will do it
But as the years go i think my mind is ruined
Maybe I’m just assuming
Been ruminating, accumulating
Room full of doubts wonderin if i could’ve made it
Yeah i could admit it
Got high just to say that the sky’s the limit
Hated every minute
But i come back for seconds like i miss it
I’ve been a loser, abuser
Passing my days but never a new year
They say talk is cheap
Guess I’m payin for it now spending all this time feelin odd to speak
Always getting off the script
And when i do I could swear i put you all to sleep
Like, i get up to this mic
But its fuckin hard to describe
Intentions i wished but never had-
Guess i honestly lied
Couldn’t say I honestly tried
That’s sad, but that’s fact
And I’m sure it’s the one that’s got dad mad
It’s regrets, then relapse
A gambler just accumulating his debts
I’ve contemplated suicide
Held the devil’s hand and looked into his eyes
Didn’t have the courage then and don’t have it now
Guess I’m still a coward, but at least I won’t let me down
So I guess I could say it without gettin my tongue tied
But I know it’s possible, so yea I got that pun right
But it’s ok and it’s alright
Life’s a climb and we all fall right?
Learnt from Nightbird that life hurts
But never ever to go down without a fight first
9 March 2024 / Jon Lau