Tell me, why is it I care so much about the opinions of mere mortals?
Why do I recycle this addiction with empty beer bottles?
Dried of liquid but still I lick it.
Its like I’m afraid to leave it, so I live it.
A livid nightmare. In a blink, I’m right there.
Their stares are cold like ice, these walls are white bare.
What do I fear bad?
What gets me real mad?
Pick up a 9 mil and wield that?
This life I live it once so why am I livin it like roulette?
Can’t undo it.
This trigger once I pull it, I can’t pull back.
It’s a noose I wear it like a crew neck.
It’s a little too loose so lemme screw that.
I’m at risk when I wrap this.
Go boom like a baptist.
I beat on this craft, it’s all practice.
See its a ship, I’ve wrecked this.
Been pulling at wisdom like a dentist.
Been paying attention, this lesson’s intensive.
1 Feb 2022, Jon Lau